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Thursday, August 28, 2008
I'm not angry, just upset.
Posted at 04:26 pm by laxative
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Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I don't know if I'm just at that age but...
I seem to be at that age where you have alot of ambitions and dreams and things that you want to learn. There's just so much to do and learn in life. Like what they say, 'You only live once', so, these days, I've been thinking alot about things I want to do in my life and there's just too much till I can't name any.
I'm too lazy to name any, so I'm just gonna go off now.
Till then.
"You may say I'm a dreamer; but I'm not the only one"
Posted at 06:35 pm by laxative
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Saturday, August 09, 2008
Sweet, sugar, uniformed men.
He's a one-stop shop, makes my tudung drop, he's a sweet sugar candy coated army man!
Well, I'm back, from watching the fireworks at the Singapore Flyer. Mind you, its at, not in. You can really feel the Singapore spirit today during the National Day, although I am not so patriotic and stuff. Well, me and my family went to the place near the Singapore flyer, and you could really get a clear view of the fireworks from there. We walked from Arab Street all the way to the Singapore flyer and its really a long walk.
We started off at Arab Street then went to Sungei Road to look around the flea market. That's when i saw this old vintage-looking bag and it costs $2. My father bargained and finallly we bought it for only $1. How freaking cheap is that? You can't even buy certain types of food with only $1! Back to the point. Sungei road is like such a cool place to be, they sold anything and everything there. Old, unused remote controls, unused wires, unused cables, unused computer chips, Vinyls, typewriters, handphones, army stuff, boots, old vintage shoes and other old and vintage and unused stuff at crazily cheap prices! But it all depends on whether people would want to buy old and once used things. I don't mind as long as they are in good condition and are still useable. I must say, going to Sungei Road is definitely beats going to some posh, overly overrated shopping malls which sells expensive things and only caters to materialistic and the rich like Wisma Atria. As in seriously. I know, some people might not be able to stand the hot sun, or the stench, or the plain crazy
old people selling their things there but going there is definitely worth a visit. You get to see vintage stuff, which I like and they are so cheap! I'm so going there again and I'm gonna get myself some vintage things which I can collect like old telescopes, compasses and even army helmets! Can't wait!
After going to Sungei Road, we went back to Arab Street for prayers then we walked around Arab Street and there's this little shop which sells vintage things but they're expensive. I love the old refrigerator, 60's dresses, Vinyls, old posters, paintings and almost everything in the shop! I realised that there's alot of art students hanging around Arab Street, armed with their sketchbooks, sketching the scenery and stuff. How i wish i was an art student! The shop owner also has things like old mirrors and barber-shop seats. After that, we went past Haji Lane, a place in Arab Street, where alot of cool kids hang out and whiff Shisha and also where alot of foreigners hang out to drink and stuff like that. And after that, we headed to the area around the Singapore flyer where there were alot of people celebrating the National Day and watching the live telecast. I was watching the parade when suddenly i heard artillery fire? Everybody there was shocked, and when we went closer, we realised that it was the 20-minute salutation, in which army men in their number one uniform fired off 20mm guns, and it was so cool! It was so cool to be watching them fire those guns up-close, its like watching a war movie except that I'm actually there. And those are army men in their number ones! How i love uniformed men! And on the way there, we saw these army men and gurkhas and police men doing their job and they looked so manly and hot and buffed that i feel like taking a picture with them, but can't cause we were rushing for time. Everybody looked hot, the gurkhas with their gun, the police men with their batons? The army men with their lightsticks. Haha. They do get bored at times until they get excited when a car passes by. They'll blow a whistle and make a big fuss. Aww so cute.
After watching the live telecast and a bit of the fireworks, we went to millenia walk and find some secluded area to do prayers. On the way there, we saw the WHOLE GROUP OF MEN from navy and army from the parade walking back with their senjata and they were all so manly and hot! First we saw the navy men, a whole freaking bunch of them, probably returning to their HQ and then we saw army men! Some of them were looking and i felt like taking a picture with them or smiling at them but I can't, cause we were rushing. After the prayers, when we headed out, this time, we saw a group of military police men, with their senjata too, and i was practically staring at one of them cause he was so hot and buffed and manly! I could have fainted on the spot, but thank god my sister was by my side to help me calm my senses. I love uniformed men! Also, we saw the airshow thing when we were there, and i took some shots, but they are unclear, and i took a shot of them firing the canon. I didn't have any shots of uniformed men though. ): So sad.
With that i shall end this post, because I am too lazy to write more, so telly'o!
Posted at 10:30 pm by laxative
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Sunday, July 27, 2008
Hello there. God knows how long I haven't blogged. That pretty much shows how much time in the world i have. Haha. Well, school's just school. The guys are horny and like to hump each other in class while spanking each other's butts. My classmates are as crazy as they'll ever be, making giant paper aeroplanes during Geography lessons and running around and screaming at times. That pretty much sums up everything. Well, friends are friends. Good old, same old friends. Oh i'm happy for the fact that I am for once in a parade! Woohoo!
I think i lost my interest in NPCC. I used to love it so much. The spirit just died down i guess. People go around laughing at NPCC i'll just go whatever and sometimes admit that NP does suck. It's not like i can defend NP anymore. Whatever.
Gosh. Anyways, I am so in love with the bands The Libertines, Dirty Pretty Things and last but not least Babyshambles! Actually all of these bands have the same person/people. Dirty Pretty Things consist of Gary and Carl from The Libertines and Babyshambles has Pete from The Libertines. Meanwhile, John Hassall, the bassist of the Libertines formed his own band too, Yeti, but I've yet to listen to them. John and Carl are so hot and Pete used to be cute and Gary is well, cute? Maybe? Haha. It's so sad that The Libertines had to break up. But, there is still hope cause Carl is willing to accept Pete back in the band so, they are getting back together soon! *Prays hard*
Gosh! I love all three bands equally! But The Libertines is still the best. No wonder Daniel Radcliffe likes them too. :)
Ah, I have to go.
Till then.
Posted at 06:56 pm by laxative
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Friday, June 20, 2008
Okay, holiday basically means no life for me. I spend everyday staring at the computer and maybe doing my homework. Yeah, NO LIFE completely. And recently, I really really have this obsession for british men, like I always had, (it's not suprising), okay, so here are the list of guys i like and is obsessed with.
8) Alex Turner
7) John Hassall
6) Ben Barnes
5) Drew McConnell
4) Luke Pritchard
3) Carl Barat
2) Skandar Keynes
1) Pete Doherty
Haha, if you realised, all of them are brits! :) Can't blame anyone for that, Britons are hot okay! Oh, and those guys are arranged in descending order according to how much i like them. Pete is definitely the odd one out cause he's neither cute nor handsome, as the others are. I like Pete cause he has a nice heart. I've been reading up alot about these people especially Pete. I even have Skandar's address! Skandar is amazingly clever and cute and british with a mix of arabic blood. Okay, I shall end it here.
And start doing my homework!
Posted at 01:31 pm by laxative
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Saturday, June 14, 2008
Okay the title sounds very poseur-ish but its rather true. I recently got addicted by songs that my sister kept playing. The songs that top the chart are probably Seven Nation Army by The White Stripes, (it's so catchy and it gets stuck in your head), Smoke On The Water By Deep Purple(whole family's obsessed) , Hallowed Be Thy Name by Iron Maiden (recently only found out it was nice) and some other songs which I can't remember the title by those british bands back in the 60's. (E.g The Beatles, The Who, The Kinks, The Rolling Stones) Heheh. I think that they are really good. These songs actually last. They don't make you bored listening to it over and over again, unlike these mainstream songs that we listen to on radio nowadays. And from these british bands back in the 60's, now we see these other Indie British bands which I like. Goodness. Bands like The Kooks, Arctic Monkeys, The Strokes, and all these other great Indie bands are inspired by music of the four great british bands of the 60's. You can kinda hear the elements of their music similar to The Beatles or whatsoever. I really like the way indie british boys dress up like. That's the most ideal dressing for a guy(in my opinion). Hehe. I really love the way british lads are dressed. They look so awesomely gorgeous yet smart yet casual and words can't describe the amazing-ness of it. Why are men so hot? ): Hahaha. Recently I've been watching a bit of the Euros and I watch because of the hot men in it. Men men everywhere! I can go crazy! Especially those Italians or Spanish or German men! Woo!
Speaking of hot men, yesterday I watched The Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian! It was a really good show! Especially with the hotness of Prince Caspian. OMG. Prince Caspian is so hot! On the other hand, Peter and Edmund (if I am not wrong) is also cute! Especially with that British accent! The starting kind of reminds me of Harry Potter, since they were transferred into a magical world through a train station. But nevermind, that's the uniqueness and hotness of British shows. I mean, how often do you get transferred into another dimension through a platform? That's the most amazing thing about British shows. Yes, yes, I am a British obsessed girl. Okay, back to the topic. Ehem. I like the fighting scenes for the Chronicles of Narnia, the graphics and computer effects are nice, although there was not much violence and gore in the movie. I also like the plot, there was some twists in it. And overall, I think that the second movie was better than the first!
After the movie yesterday, me and my sister went to Coffeebean & Tea Leaf for a cup of coffee. I had iceblended vanilla frappe with coffee and my sister got ol' fashioned coffee for herself. We had a deep talk over coffee. I felt very wholesome yesterday due to that. Haha. I can't exactly explain what exactly we talked about, but we were talking about shallow people and girls who measure their worth through how 'laku' they are. The direct translation for laku is actually popular, but in this case, it says how many guys want them. Goodness, don't even let me begin. I just cannot stand really really shallow girls, it drives me nuts. Trust me, I have encountered one so I know. My sister knows too, since she teaches this nice girl, but her general knowledge is not so good. (Considering she doesn't know what Europe is or what ASEAN is) The thing is about these girls are that, maybe(i'm just suggesting) they have nothing else to be proud of? Well, I guess its true, since guys nowadays are so desperate for girls that they would just get any girl so long as they could fulfill their sexual desires? Well, even if they do, that doesn't give you any reason to get boyfriends and dump him and get another one in a short period of time does it? Well, I don't know. I can't really blame these girls, maybe they are deprived of attention? Only god knows. But the most stupid thing that I can't stand is that these girls are measuring their worth by just that! I mean, HELLO, LIFE IS NOT ALL ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE IS IT? It does revolve around other things you know. Goodness, where's your dignity? Where's your sense of your pride for your own worth? There's just so many of these kind of people that really pisses me off. I know its none of my business at all, but these people really need to THINK, MAN. Goodness! I just cannot stand really really shallow people (as in extremely shallow that you don't even know what Big Ben is or what are the 7 continents or those who measure their self worth by just that or those who think that they don't have to study because they're so laku that in the future they can just marry a rich and intellectual man and to feed off his money and become a tai tai) Come on. Life is not a bed of roses. You should know better than that. Okay, maybe you have been lucky and happy all these while, but like what I've always felt strongly about, ' Air pun ada pasang surutnya' . Your happiness will eventually lead to your downfall. You'll see one day.
*Sigh* It is rather sad that you actually have a friend like that, to whom you've given advice to, to change, but still is persistent. Nevermind, all I'll do right now is be patient, because that's what I've always been all these while.
With that, I shall end this entry, I do not want to get myself in a bad mood just by thinking about it. So, tschuss!
-P.S. To those mats and minahs on friendster who don't read books who say things like 'I'm not interested in books' or 'I don't read books' or 'I'm too cool for books' or what shit, let me just say something. Not reading books doesn't make you cool, it makes you stupid; Reading books doesn't make you a nerd, it gives you knowledge. So next time, maybe you should just put 'I'm too stupid to read books' under Favourite Books instead of blaming and framing books, since books can't do much to harm you.
Posted at 08:25 pm by laxative
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Thursday, June 12, 2008
I need to go out. I cannot take staying at home like this anymore. Its freaking boring! All I've been doing is updating my dead things and surfing through the net and reading books and doing homework and this is boring me to the core. How I wish i actually HAD a proper life. Jassy is like so happy. She gets happy at everything. How I wish I was like her. Happy. Carefree. In Germany. Has many cute German friends who are also happy like her.
Have you ever thought about how unjust life is? Well I have. Especially mine. Life is never a bed roses, I've learnt to accept that, but they say "Air pun ada pasang surutnya". Is there any "pasang" in my life? As far as I try to recall, the ratio of pasang to the ratio of surut is 2:7. That's a huge difference. I'm not going to blame anyone for this because I believe that if it's anyone to blame, it's myself. How to enjoy life if you're such a pessimist? How to enjoy life when you are never satisfied? Yeah, it all makes sense now. Life is great when you think it's great. And it sucks if you think it sucks. So, in order to make life great, I must be more optimistic.
Okay, will do.
Posted at 10:16 pm by laxative
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Friday, May 30, 2008
The Police Academy is such a nice place to be. :) Ika might know why. From the bus ride to the Academy to being in the place to the bus ride back from the place. It is such a wonderful yet magical experience. If you know what I mean. (:
Okay, from Monday till today I have been going to HTA. NPCC people unite! HTA is an awesome place to be, trust me. You get to see alot of your fellow NPCC cadets and policemen. And its so big and wonderful and its just so amazing, words can't describe its awesomeness. Monday till Tuesday was LMSC (Leadership Mentoring Skills Course) and today, Wednesday, was the revolver shooting competition. Ehem, let me begin.
Monday Day 1 (26/5/2008)
Okay, to start things off, I had to touch-up on my uniform on Sunday, which I did, and asked ayah untuk tolong polishkan boots, which is super shiny, until i can see my fingers reflected. So shiny! Okay, then after that had to wake up early early in the morning to reach school latest by 7.15 to change into full u. I thought i was late, so I rushed. Then, I was like the earliest. WTF. I just went to the 1st floor toilet to shit since i had the sudden urge, then these two girls outside were talking about their shit and how it smells like. And one of them was like "Does your shit smell like rotten mushrooms?" then the other said " Never before leh, why? Yours smell like rotten mushrooms ah?" then the other said "I thought everyone shit smell like rotten mushrooms? then the other went " Nolah, only yours what?" then the other paused and the other continued "You eat alot of mushrooms ah?" and i was feeling constipated at that time, and there were they, talking about how shit smells like. -_- I was secretly cursing to myself in the cubicle. After that I just left the toilet and went outside to look if anyboy fall in, which to my surprise, nobody did, and then heard Melissa calling me. So I looked up, and she and huda headed to the 4th storey just to change. OKAY. So i huffed and puffed and managed to meet them in the toilet. After that change change change, then after that, met the other np girls who were late at the canteen and went to the canteen girl's toilet. Then me and huda went to fall in and ran without our berets on in the open air. We forgot, so
we fall in with the guys. Then the sir told us to ask the girls to fall in and so we had to run again and fetch 'em. Early morning PT. -_- Okay after that blah blah blah rode the bus, and again with the moodswings. FGS( For goodness's sake) lah, who are you to marah people? CB. Okay anyways, then after that reach, put on beret, then we fall in with the squad and marched our way to harmony hall. Then we were like the only blur school there. Such an embarassment. Goodness, we always get embarassed by their stupidity. I find it annoying. Then
we and Hong Kah peeps formed squad 2, at first we were very quiet and they were obviously annoyed by my dear squadmates who had no discipline at all and could not keep their mouths shut, so yeah. I was so malu lah. I feel like so wtf. Goodness.
Then then there was these kind of talks and lectures. It was not so boring yet not so fun either. After that we were told to mix around, which means we must alternately arrange myself in hongkah-commonwealth fashion. It was not so bad, considering I knew some of the peeps in Hong Kah, one madrasah friend, and one ATC friend which i got to now last year. Then me and rasyiqah, the hong kah person, started talking about the Commonwealth School building. According to her, the school revolves around ghost stories much to my shock and utter disbelief. Got alot of sisters and ghosts and all those shit. Yeah. I remember when I was in Sec One Commonwealth seemed like a pretty normal school to me. It seemed perfectly nice and big and hilly. But yeah, maybe I was
too oblivious? Nevertheless, I am thankful to not have weird encounters. (: Okay, back to the story. After that, Hariza was like "Banyak cerita nampak," then I turned around and told her what we were talking about. She too didn't know the old school was haunted. : Yeah then talk talk talk talk. Then lecture lecture talk talk lecture. Then lunch. Then lecture again. Actually the whole day
was rather monotonous, nothing much actually. Then after whole thing was over, went home.
Tuesday Day 2 (27/5/2005)
I am way too lazy to blog any more about this stupid LMSC thing. The second day was by far better than the first day. First, we had uniform measurement so we had to fall in in full u. Suddenly out of nowhere this stupid bee just flew up to me and landed on my skirt. I was really disgusted and frightened since its a bee and bees can sting. So i started moving about and trying to get the thing off me but it was super persistent It wanted to fly up my skirt! Of course, I was
utterly terrified so i was praying hard that it would go away. Then, one of the sirs went stop fidgeting in which i did, which only meant that the bee was going to stay on me longer. And I was right. The fella was so insistent on getting my attention and making me fidget when falling it that it landed on my blouse. Then
I was looking down at it and it was looking up at me. And i was squirming and then it went away, only to haunt my fellow squadmates.
After that, we changed into our half u and i got freaking pissed at this stupid makcik who claimed that one of the toilet cubicles was her 'dressing room' . I just kept quiet though and minded my own business. Then after that got this MOI (Methods of instruction) session in which i got sabo-ed by the Hong Kah peeps and I was supposed to teach the people there who pretended to be Sec Ones how to do Kekanan Lurus. And it got quite frustrating abit. Yeah but it was fun and they pointed out our mistakes.
Then after that there were some bonding games and I just realised that most of my madrasah friends are in NPCC. Its almost like everyone I know is in it. Its quite surprising and weird in a way. *Sigh* The games were fun and team building-y. :D I enjoyed it.
Okay, I guess that's all for the LMSC session, although the LMSC is over, we are supposed to re-do LMSC. -_-
Wednesday Day 3 (28/5/2008)
It really sucks to wear full U 3 days straight. But it doesn't suck to go to HTA. Yeah, I got quite tired of having to change into the same uniform for 3 days straight. Since its all smelly and stuff, and you can't wash it. Ugh. On wednesday i AGAIN had to go HTA for revolver shooting competition. It was so sucky. My first paper had sucky shots! But my second one was not too bad, although the first one was much simpler than the second one. I am so weird. Yeah. My score pretty much sucked, and so was everyone else's and I can't blame anyone for that. For me, nothing has registered onto my head. It was only 10 a.m and we're shooting. What i did register was the fact that I am, in fact, shooting live rounds and I am in a shooting competition. Other that that, half of my brain was still in OnkLand. After the shooting competition, I met Syaz and Zulaikha at CSS for malay oral. And then met ashiqa and azizan and i missed them because I haven't been seeing them for two days as i was preoccupied with NPCC things. And then talk talk talk then go home.
So that pretty much sums everything.
With that, I'm going to end this effortless entry.
Bye, you crumb begging baghead.
Posted at 09:49 pm by laxative
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
I dunno why but life had just suddenly lost its meaning for me. I was just thinking about my life the other day in the bus, and thinking about how unfulfilled my life is. Like they say, life is short, and you have to cherish it while it lasts, but I dunno how to cherish life right now. I feel so empty. There's nothing for me to look forward to everyday (not like there was one to begin with), I feel empty, life is so dull and monotonous for me, that I dread each day.
WTF. Why am i even writing this way? I sound so emo. Hmm, I'm just writing what I feel, I AM NOT TRYING TO BE EMO or whatsoever. Maybe i misplaced my feelings? Hmm, even Ika said that I sound very monotonous and unreactive. The other day in the bus after the drama performance I was thinking about those talented drama people. They are so talented, maybe they have been groomed from a young age. That left me thinking. What am I talented in? Whatever it is, I have never been given the opportunity to take whatever I am good at classes, courses, etc. And that really made a big impact of me. Suddenly, I feel that my life is so unfulfilled, like I don't know what I am good at and what I want to do in life. It sucks. Its as if I was born with no reason. Its as if there's no reason for life. I mean, its so pointless. Other people might be taking music classes, singing classes, art classes, etc, but what about me? I'm sure there's gotta be more to life than academics right? Goodness, this feeling has been bugging me from yesterday. Suddenly I feel so insignificant and unimportant. Like I'm not needed anywhere. It's not like I am much needed in CCA. I'm not even that good academically.
Gosh. As I am saying this, I feel so monotonous and emotionless. Maybe the dementors came and sucked the life out of me? That, I have no idea. Maybe I misplaced my feelings? Hmm...........
Okay, I think I better go find my feelings now, wherever it is. So that's all for now, tura.
Posted at 05:16 pm by laxative
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Monday, May 19, 2008
Hmm, I guess it's no longer surprising anymore; the fact that i get angry easily.
Posted at 08:38 am by laxative
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